Stand alone

Man are really jerks. You guys never fail to chng my thinking of you ppl. You guys juz do wat you all wan, give empty promises, juz leave when you all wan etc.. Have you guys even bother to think how the girl will feel at the end of the day. Girls are always at the lossing point. Wat do you mean by call me/or msg me when you need someone to talk to. When the girl is great pain, she call/msg you, do you bother to ans her call. Do you bother to reply her msg?? You ppl are not helping but by adding salt onto the wound.

You think tat we do not wan to be strong? We wan too... But have you guys ever thought of how painful is it to let a girl to go thru all this. All you guys wan is freedom, do wat ever you all... You ppl are juz selfish ppl. EVIL CREATURES.... You guys juz let me disrespect you ppl, let me even hate you all more!!! At time you guys jzu let us feel tat we're juz like a fool!!! Or are you guys treating us like a clown??? Taking us for granted all this while...

My dad came back hm juz now. Not giving me any call to inform me he is coming back. I was at home. I locked myself in the room. Suddenly outside went silence, i thought he have went off. Open my door, n saw my mum's door was closed. I open the door, saw him sleeping on my mum's bed! I was so pissed off, you're drunk n you come back here n sleep. N is like 550pm, my mum n my bro will come back anytime. He told me to let him sleep for 5 more mins. I walked out and went back to wake him up again. N he still refused to wake up. I went in at 610, i was really at my top. I argued with him, he bang the wall. Telling me he is my father, why am i treating him this way. Pls... you are the one who created all this. And you are blaming us for all this. At tat moment i was scared. Cos he was drunk, he was banging the wall and shouting at me. I really din noe wat to do. I was all alone. I told myself, if he really wan to go crazy, juz let him be. N i'm well prepare for it. His phone rang and was tat woman who called. I juz got annoyed by it. I almost went to snatch the phone frm him n call her bitch. I controlled my temper. B4 he left he came in my rm. I din wan to look and talk to him. He told me "i'm ur dad"... PLS USE UR BRAIN N THINK!!! YOU DUN DESERVE TO ME MY DAD!!! I HATE YOU!!! YOU GUYS ARE USELESS PPL... JUZ DUN APPEAR INFRONT OF ME. YOU ONLY LET ME LOOK DOWN AT YOU!!!

Silly/Stupid

Things juz do not stop for me. When can things be smooth for me? I really have lost myself, i juz cant find myself. At time, i juz do things tat i should not have done. I'm sorry, i left sch half way thru. I cried, i'm lost, i dunno who to look for. I juz went blank and pack my stuff and went off. I regret leaving... Y din i stay for lessons, y did i juz pack and leave?

I really really dunno... I'm in darkness, i keep telling myself to be strong but i cant. I keep falling back. First, i lost a complete family, my studies got affected, i lost my relationship. I even dun dare to see the result i'm going to get for last term. It will be another blow for me again! I really dunno how... I lost everything... My health is also affected somehow. Have not been sleeping n eating well! This is not me!!! I look so horrible now!

I did think of leaving everything behind and go to a place tat belongs to me. But i noe it unfair for ppl ard mi. Mayb they will be upset for awhile, after some time they will forget abt mi? I NEVER NEVER FELT SO PAIN N LOST BEFORE...

I lost my smile... I lost my confidence.... I lost my myself.... Amelia have went MISSING.... She dunno where to go, whom to go, what to do... I think she will loss the battle soon...

I may look very strong in eveyone eyes. But now i cant find myself, i noe everyone is supporting me frm the back. I juz cant stand firm. I mayb fine now but not the next moment... My tears are drying, but the pain is still there... At time i juz cant cry anymore.... :( :( :(

对不起!!!

Relationship???

Haiz... So sad, within a week 2 couple have broke up. But i really hopetat one of them can patch things up. It so heart breaking to see ur frenz ending up in this stage. Especially, they have been together for more than 1 year.

To start and to end a relationship is really not easy. In the mid of the relationship, u have gone thru so much with each other. Memories r all there... Ya, fate may end there. But is really so painfull to go thru all this. To maintain a relationship is always not easy at all. It always easy to give ppl advice, but when the problem happen on yourself. You really dunno wat to do.

It always take 2 hands to clap... U juz can't work things out by your own. No matter how strong a girl can be. You always wan ur bf to pamper you. To give you all the secure, trust n love tat you wan. For guys, you always wan your freedom to do wat you wan. You dun wan the girls to step in your personal life. You wan the girls to listen to wat you say!

In a relationship we juz need to sort things out whenever we find tat things are not going well. At time when it come to small matter we shall learn how to let go, but not to make problem even bigger. At the end of the day, things will get even worse. At the main time we must also try to solve the problem together but not to run away frm it.

Being together the 3 most important words are, TRUST, CONFIDENT and CHERISH! And not taking each other for granted, being there for each other when the other party need support or listening ears/shoulder...

To love someone, you have to accpect who they are! Try to help them to chng them to better person. Appreciate the things tat they do for you. And to understand each other...

Really hope tat those who are in relationship can last forever, and enjoy/cherish every process of their love life!

HAPPY 100 DAYSARY, BABY =)

Hope tat we can have countless of days, months, years together. We will not noe wat will happen in future. But juz to cherish the time we have together! Hugs... Stay happy always :)

Juz dun feel like facing it!

I juz feel like locking up myself in the dark rm again. I thought that i have make a small step out! I did... But things keep on happening till i juz dunno wat i can do! Till i have the fear of dunno wat will hapeen next! Feeling stress, lost, scared, insecure.... Feeling so sorry for the loved ones tat need to go thru all this with mi...

When can things be settle? Can i hold on to till that day??? :( :( :(

You are really getting yourself into deep shit! No one can really help u, so can i!