My brain is juz blank!!!

I'm juz feeling tired. Dunno how much i sleep i juz feel tired, i juz can't really sleep well. It seems tat things r coming non stop. Can i juz put a full stop there, or can i juz run away for this period. I'm really tired le... I juz need a break at this moment but i can't. When can i have a smooth life??? When is the game going to stop. I really juz like crying out. But my tears juz can't flow out!!! But my chest r in pain...

Mum have shifted in since sunday. I noe tat she's not getting use to it. There's lot of 'rules' to follow here, it juz not as comfortable as your own hse. (i hope she understand how i'm feeling staying outside) I'm trying to let her get use to it. It so stressful tat i have to acc her, make sure she dun feel alone. Listen to wat she wan to say, control my temper in front of her. At time i really feel like yelling at her, asking her to wake up. Not being so soft hearted. I still feel tat she can't bear to c him in e state where he got nothing. But at the end of the day, u think so much for him. Does he bother abt ur feeling at the first place, he's the one who ask for all this. No one force him to do so.

He called mi tat day, asking mi y i din call him. I juz tell him i'm busy with work. He told mi his mouth is not in shape now. He's having mental problem, n need to consult doc. I juz told him if u have sickness juz consult the doc. I juz dunno y i dun feel sad/worried after hearing all this. Cos in the first place i have told u b4 to take good care of ur health but u din wan to listen. He even say he may die any time. I really juz have no feeling when i hear tat, i'm numb already ba. He even asked for my full name n I/C no. He wan to give mi all his CPF share. I juz told him no need. Wat is the point of giving it to mi. U urself already broke, ur life is being controlled by tat lady. U think u still have anything left, i dun think so.

He even called up mum's work place to look for mum's good fren, Cindy. telling her tat if mum have a bf juz go ahead n he will sign the divorce letter. N telling her tat he hav shifted out of the hse. Y r u saying all this where u r e one who have made e wrong move. N pushing the blame to mum, u r not being a gentleman at all. U dun gain any respect frm mi at all. He even tell Cindy aunty tat if he noe who is teaching mum to ask her to get a PI. He will kill tat person, as he is sharpening the knife now. Hello... Wat r u trying to do?? Threatening us?? Scaring us??

N mum noe abt it, she so worried tat he will. I told her, if he really dare he have done long ago n will not say it out. He's juz trying to scare us. N telling mi she's blank. Cindy aunty even say if he happen to ask anything dun mention her name. WTF!!! U call urself as a good fren... Can u pls step a side... U r e one who wan to get involve in wat's going on. Now u scared n ask my mum not so say ur name. N mum dunno wat she should do now. She feeling scared/worried. I have told her million time, juz sign the stupid thing n get urself free.

I'm not suprised tat she will not go to the lawyer tml, can see tat she's not prepared. I juz feel tired at time talking to her e same thing. But i noe i got to b patient. She even say if he really shift out, she will move back to jurong hse. It up to her, cos i noe she's not sleeping well n not feeling comfortable her. I'm juz like being squeeze in between by my mum n the old man, n i really scared tat i will juz burst out one day. Do they noe how much pain i'm going thru??? I really feel like doing my things at any time. I really wish i can give myself a break, to really cry out. I'm feel stress n lost at time...

Ladies, as usually i'm ok! Pls dun feel sad for mi! I will let u girls noe when i really can't breathe.