Missing bits and pieces...

Mummy is planning for her genting trip during Xmas... Sigh... Xmas will be alone at home again!!! Hate the feelings so much, first was bday now is xmas... All this occasion seems to be just normal day to me now, nothing special in it anymore.

Planning a short getaway by myself during my bday... Things are no longer like the fairytales that i wanted last time. They have all turn into pain and sadness to me. Have been telling myself, I have to be strong and face everything by myself.

I miss my ah ma so much... She have left us for a year, but i have not accept the fact yet. I always felt that she is still around us, she did not leave us at all. I miss everyting single moment with her.. She is the one who always support me in whatever i do, even i din do well in it. She will always say GOOD without fail... How i wish she is still here to push me on... My tears will just flow whenever i think of her...

Things have change reasons. Nothing can turn the time back to where it use to be. Memories are the one that keep me accompany. I miss the smile from my heart to everyone.

Countless of things that happen have made changes to me. I hate who i am now... All i can do to myself is to numb with myself with work!!! Letting all the work load to drain me out to let me sleep at night...

To please both side of people is always not easy at all. All i need was just the simple understand. And i appreciate it a lot...

经过太多悲伤和打击，现在的我好像没感觉了。。。 心里不想在失去任何东西。。。 那种打击， 我不知还能不能再接受。。。