Feelings...

The question that my friend asked me juz now, n i really think hard on it! How's your relationship with Jaryl? I was like, emmm ok. He's treating mi well, n when i'm down he always try his best to cheer mi up. N i'm happy with him. But suddenly this came out of my mouth, but sometime i juz feel we're more like friends than couple. N my fren juz open his mounth wide n asked mi y.

Being together at time we juz need to be friends instead of couple. Being frank with each other, sharing our problems that we face even the problem lies on each other. Trying to guess what the other party is thinking at time etc... The time we spend most is the journey to sch, we hardly can meet up for meal or date on only for 2 or have a heart to heart chat. My side is got to acc my both mummys, sch work n meet up with my frenz. For him is got to acc his frenz too. If not is going out together with my classmates. So we hardly can find the time together...

At time, i really felt tat we really treat frenz more important than our relationship. I admit tat at time I'm really upset tat i can't meet you cos u have arrangement with your frenz. At times, where i really hope tat u can be there for mi. But you can't, n i got to b strong by myself n telling you i'm ok. And I juz comfort myself by telling myself it ok. I have to go thru all this myself, you will follow mi frm my back. I juz din wan to throw temper or voice out becos i told myself i got to be reasonable n understanding. As your frenz r e one who is alway by your side when u need them. Being single for so long n now u're attach, i dun wan to tie u up n let you enjoy your freedom you use to have. Dun wan to force you to do something which you dun like to do.

Perhaps i juz being too strong headed. I expect a lot from you which i din voice up. Cos i dun wan to sound unreasonable, i dun wan to stress you. I wan the both of us to enjoy this relatioship n juz treasure wat we have. At time, i may give you cold shoulder. But i din really mean it, give mi some time to cool myself down n think over it. N i will b fine after tat. I'm sorry to say things tat hurt you, i really din did it on purpose. I'm a person who like to keep things to myself. Juz give mi time n i will try to express it out.

Baby, i hope tat we can walk thru this path together no matter how hard it is... No matter wat, i will b by your side always! n i really need you to express your feeling to mi. Thank you for being my friend n bf! Thanks for everything tat u have done, i appreciate every single thing u have done for mi! Dun feel lousy, u have been a very good bf to mi:)More things r coming up, hope tat we can hang on to it. It a challenge for us baby... I love you, baby...