你在那里? 我好想你。。。

Most people ard me are feeling down this few weeks. Somehow it will affect my mood too... But no matter wat, i still have to remain the strong Amelia infront of everyone even i'm feeling down. I really really wish tat ppl ard me can be happy always. Free frm problems, i noe it impossible. Problems are always there, but i hope tat they can think of the brighter side of it and not really got affected by it. There is always sun shine at the end of the rain.

I really wonder if i'm really feeling happy or they are all fake feelings to show ppl. I cant even differenation the kind of feeling i'm having? Why do i have this kind of feeling? When can i be the real happy self? Am i running away frm problems, or am i already facing the fact and have accept it? Things juz chng, and it so hard to accept it. It really pain to go thru all this. Ppl may sae, no pain no gain. But have they ever put themselves into our shoes?

When was the day that i really lost myself, and when is the dae tat i will find back myself? By cutting off my hair, things can change ma? (haha... silly of me! really veri silly of mi...)